"Amber, why are you awake so early?"

Well, that's an excellent question. It can be answered by a cliche... "Guilt is an extremely good motivator". Ya see - my nephew is visiting his mother this week - he from Memphis - and she living in Missouri. Naturally, when he is within a 2 hour drive as opposed to a 9 hour drive, I want to make the effort to see him. So I arranged to go pick him up today, bring him to Tulsa so my mom and I could see him, then share with my dad - and let dad take him back.

Here's where the guilt comes in... I have 2 other nephews who - admittedly - I haven't really been involved with their lives. I also have a niece. I am less involved with her life now than I was when she was a baby, but she is 13 - and can understand easier why I am more distant. In any case my other 2 nephews each have a football game today. One beginning at 9am. And my sister - bless her - has made me feel so guilty for not going up there more often - that I set my alarm for 6am, and I am giving my Saturday to the Guilt Gods in the hopes that I can feel good about myself as an auntie once again.

Did I mention I wrecked my car yesterday? a $600 screw up provided by yours truely.

Also - are any of you secretly wealthy? I need about $35,000. I really don't even know how to begin to get that kind of money. *Sigh*

Maybe next year

:(

They lost.

It wasn't a blow-out, but my Sooners lost. And the Texas quarterback was good. Not good. REALLY GOOD. It's going to be a long stretch of years while he is in charge.

In other news - I'm having my first cold of the season. Sore throat, stuffy nose, congested head and chest. Good times. PS - Tylenol has these cold medicine pills that they put flavor on the coating. Why they would do this is beyond me. When you are sick enough to have to take cold medicine, the last thing you want is a funky taste in the back of your throat. But that's what you get. Cool Burst in the daytime package, and Berry Burst in the nighttime package. I actually in my fuzzy headed state last night wondered whether I was supposed to chew or swallow the damn things. In short - they're gross, and they don't work as well as NyQuil. So don't waste your money.

Today is Sunday, and I've enjoyed a leisurly morning. I got up - cleaned a little bit, then had coffee and read the paper. After being defeated by the crossword - I logged online, and decided to post on my little blog here.

I know I've said it before - but I'm not sure how much longer I'll continue the blog. Or maybe I'll move it. I know it doesn't have my name on it really - but Travis (one of the teachers at my school) just had his Myspace vandalized by a kid. Well - vandalized isn't the best word. The kid got on there, and sent him a myspace email message with a VERY ugly content. I really don't want any of my kids on here. Not that I think any of them would write something ugly. I actually think that the vast majority of my kids like me. But I wouldn't want them to know as much personal stuff about me as what I write here. And I also wouldn't want to censor myself. So - I guess you could say I am at a crossroads. And I don't want to switch to blogging on Myspace because 90% of the time, I can't get the blog feature to actually function on there.

We'll see what I come up with.

My candle business is getting of to a shaky, but much more sure start now. I'm hosting a debut show at my house on Oct. 21. If you live in the area, and would like to attend, please email me. :) I'd be happy for ANYONE who is interested to attend. :)

Out for now.

It's 9:06pm

...and Texas still SUCKS!!!

And no matter the outcome of the game tomorrow - THEY WILL STILL SUCK. :)

Oh, the hate... It runs deep. And it's real.

Naturally, I'm hoping for my guys in Crimson and Cream to come out with a victory.

I'm sure that they can.

I'm watching Law & Order right now. Just wanted to check in.

oily marks appear on walls where pleasure moments hung before

HAPPY OCTOBER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fall. My favorite season. Okay - really fall and winter are tied for first place in my mind. But right now, I'm ready for some pretty foliage, and fires in the fireplace. And pumpkins!

Not so much ready for grading papers - although that comes with the territory of Fall. We'll see if I can fit that into my schedule for today. If I don't, I don't. :)

T minus six days to OU/saxet. (one of the first things one learns as an OU student is how to spell the word "Texas" upsidedown and backwards)

I'm not sure it's going to be a fun turnout - but still, I can always get up for OU/saxet. Even in the John Blake years.

It's been a stressful week for me. With the planning and preparing for this Dry Gulch camp thing at work - I've been one busy girl who has seen more of her classroom than her living room. I was so distracted and stressed out on Wednesday morning, that I actually fell down. Not just tripped and sort of fell, but full-out, sprawled out on the ground, crying on the floor, rugburn on my knee, fell down. It hurt both my feelings, and my body. Then, upon arrival to work that morning, the wind slammed my car door shut on my back. It was shaping up to be one of THOSEdays. Miraculously, I lived through it pretty much unscathed, and unscarred.

On my way to dishes, laundry, and grading papers. Doesn't sound like a relaxing Sunday - but it's the closest I'm gonna get.